When I began working with several Norse gods last year, I realized it was simultaneously very new and the culmination of old habits.
I’ve always been interested in the Norse myths, though I felt like I never resonated with the gods. I’d read Bullfinch and the sorts of books featuring Norse gods that elementary students come across, and nothing in them really drew my attention, but in the back of my mind I had crossed them off the list of pantheons to research.
And yet I found myself reading fiction featuring them repeatedly – Diana Wynne Jones’ Eight Days of Luke, Douglas Adams’ Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul, Neil Gaiman’s American Gods and Sandman, Marvel’s Thor and the anime Matenai Loki Ragnarok all spring immediately to mind – and that’s just off the top of my head.
At the same time, I was drawn to the concept of God as Storyteller. Oh, and I felt like I was being followed by big black raven-like crows, but that’s another matter entirely.
Other things happened, other priorities cropped up, and I felt like I was groping around in the dark, trying to find something. I read books. I read a lot of books, trying to find the right answer. I kept getting drawn to people writing about their relationships with the Norse gods, the Northern tradition, and Anglo-Saxon practice – and at first I went “what can I learn from this for my own spirituality.” And somehow it didn’t occur to me that what I could be learning was the spirituality! I know, it’s amazing how dense one can be.
Finally, after some major life changes and some careful questions from my favorite Local Pagan Store Owner, I started seriously looking at my religious life again. As I always do, when in doubt, I started reading. I took a closer look at the myths, and I realized there was a lot there I hadn’t noticed before. I read about the gods, and discovered that among many other skills, Odin is a god of storytellers. I studied the nine noble virtues and found a system that was a good match for the values I always held.
Once I started reaching back to Odin, it was pretty much open season and it wasn’t long before I found myself drawn straight to the gods of the waters. Somehow I always end up back at the ocean no matter where I go or what I do, and so here I am.